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Name: angeliquor
Birthday: 7/3/1984
Gender: Female


Interests: music.writing.ideologies.formatted attitude.alterations of bad behaviors.and i simply can't live without my family. and...I think I've found my world.
Expertise: hurm ......song writing.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Media


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Member Since: 10/11/2004

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Monday, October 01, 2007

It is a very relieving way to express how you feel during that particular day on everything that happens around which you translate it into words and have it shown through internet. However, the text that you have typed may not be suitable for anyone to read it as it may contradicts their ideas, beliefs, values and thoughts. That process is normal. Not all people support your idea and not all people reject your idea. Believe me, blogging is fun and it might be a new therapy to relieve stress and things alike.

I have used this blog for about 3 years already. This realitypills blog has been a good friend of mine though the blog may create controversial issues among its readers. I am sorry for the words that may looked harsh and very sensitive to anyone of you who read it. I am not a perfect human anyway, I may be good or bad at times. I mean, everyone goes through the same thing and process as we all learn from any experiences that we've gained. Sounds stupid and full of denial but in reality, we do.

It was on a Friday evening where I registered myself as a user for xanga.com and have a domain as Realitypills in the UiTM library, Melaka. My friends were all heading back to their homes while I spent my time alone in the library checking out art books, yes, art books in the art section. I love reading (or seeing?) the art books because of the content maybe. I even brought along my colour pencils and markers to copy any cool designs shown in any of the books to be pasted on the jotted papers of my pink diary. Man, how I treasure that pinky lil' diary. And so, I went down to the Internet zone and started to surf the Internet. Checking out friendsters (which was blocked later by UiTM Melaka, damn lah. No one was allowed to access friendster and myspace ever since) and I realized that one of the people I know used xanga.com as his blog. From that moment, I thought it was rather a fun new thing to do and  Realitypills was born. I took the idea of using the word reality based on a movie screened years ago. Hey, I even love the soundtrack especially Mmm-mm-my Sharona!

Today, I think it's the end of the Realitypills. It's a lil' hard to make designs on xanga because we had to pay some amount to have the xanga premier in allowing any designs or media attached to the blog as well as the blog skin. So, it ended up looking a bit dull and boring as the design is so monotonous and is not catchy at all. I need something fresh and new.

I felt sad to have this blog closed because the stories in this blog left me with so many good and bad memories. Goodbye, Realitypills. Goodbye all.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

[angelica]

4.40p.m, 1 October 07.


Friday, September 21, 2007

I missed my mum and dad.

I missed my late nyai (grandma).

I missed everything about Hari Raya when I was a kid.

and ..

I missed my old friends so much.

[angelica]


Monday, September 17, 2007

I somehow cannot listen to this song:

Call Me by Blondie

Why? Because it is sooooo catchy and I lurveeeeee the mood of that song. Somehow, Blondie memang tangkap giler rocker lah. Memang Rockerina abes. Hahah.

Hari ni, aku terasa nak buat ayat Melayu. So, be it.

Kadang-kadang, aku rasekan yang dunia ni memang best giler giler giler. Sebab apa yang dunia 'offer' buat penghuninya memang best sangat. Ada laut yang cantik, ade pokok-pokok yang besar dan hijau, ade mak ayah, ade MP3, ade kawan kawan yang gile dan sama 'siow', ade guitar, ade bunga yang berwarna-warni, ade air untuk diminum dan ade segala jenis makanan yang memang lazat tak terhingga. Sampai aku tewas kepada semua tawaran hebat ni dan kadang-kadang sampaikan jadi leka tak hengat dunia.

Tapi, yang tak bestnye adalah perkara-perkara yang busuk untuk difikir. Contohnya, kerja yang menimbun bak sampah-sampah di kawasan setinggan, harga makanan yang mahal, baju-baju branded yang cantik dan hanya mampu memandang saja, exam yang susah, orang-orang yang menduga kesabaran manusia sampai ke tahap tak terkawal, membayar bil dan banyak menggunakan duit untuk kereta saje. Sakit ooo..

Sebab tu, aku rase confuse. Kita ni sebagai manusia, memang tak lari daripada masalah. Memang lah, siapa tak nak lari daripada semua problemos ni kan tapi apa yang kite mampu buat? Takkan nak lari macam tu jer then biarkan semua masalah tu melarat. Tul tak? Walau macam mane serius or kritikal masalah tu pun, kite terpaksa hadapinya. Gang Green Gang, Powerpuff Girls. Macam tu la. The good fights the bad ones. Ikutkan hati aku, aku nak terbang pergi Pulau Perhentian skarang ni jugak and bermandi manda tengok segala macam ikan dalam air yang biru tu. Nyaman, Cantik, Wonderful. Hilang masalah aku skejap. Bukanlah aku nak kata aku ni bermasalah tapi aku rase yang masalah akan sentiasa mencari kite walaupun kite berlari laju macam Watson Nyambek.

Sorry ah, aku merapu hari ni sebab mood tgh merepek.

Aku memang tak faham dengan sikap segelintir masyarakat yang susah nak melahirkan perasaan bersyukur. Maksud aku, bersyukur dengan apa yang dikurniakan oleh Tuhan. Semua ciptaan-Nya sebenarnya sudah cukup sempurna untuk kita. Kenapa kite mesti nak merungut tentang diri sendiri kan? Lebih kesian lagi bile tengok orang lain yang cacat anggota badannya, bisu, pekak, tempang dan banyak lagi lah. Jadi, cukup lah dengan apa yang kite ade sekarang. Dah cukop cantik dah. Dah cukop molek dah. Tak kisah la kalau kite ni gemuk ke, tak beautiful ke, terlalu kurus ke, mulut terlalu sexy ke...yang penting, kite bersyukur.

Dengan sikap suke bersyukur ni la mampu menjadikan kite menyayangi diri sendiri dan seterusnya, orang lain. Bile kite tak puas hati dengan diri sendiri, mesti kite tidak berpuas hati dengan orang lain. Trust me, ini memang biasa. Jadinya, senang......kite sayang diri sendiri dulu. Then, secara automatiknya, mesti kite akan sayang orang sekeliling. Tak perlulah nak membenci tak tentu hala, nak berprasangka buruk tak tentu hala, nak mencaci tak tentuk hala....bosan kan situasi macam ni? MEMANG BOSAN GILER.

Aku tengok, manusia ni memang mudah memaafkan orang jika seseorang itu dapat berfikir secara dalam-dalamnya kenapa tuhan mencipta persaudaraan dan persahabatan dalam hidup kite. Kite sering disayangi, disukai tetapi masih dibenci,tidak disukai...benda ni normal. Cume kite je kene pandai tanganinya. Handle with care, yeah. Haha.

Aku cakap benda ni bukan untuk suke-suke. Aku menyentuh hal ni sebab sekarang ni bulan puasa. Aku tengah fikir betul-betul apa yang aku patut buat sepanjang bulan yang mulia and sempurna ni untuk diri aku sendiri. Tak dinafikan, aku masih tengah rase keliru, gembira tapi sedih....sebab mak ayah tak dapat berpuasa selama sebulan kat sini..tapi mesti ade hikmahnya kan? Apa pun, aku sentiasa doakan mak ayah aku 25 jam sehari. Orang nak mempermainkan kata-kata aku ni, buat lah. Dah tak kisah. Janji aku bahagia dengan mekap ku.hahaha.What tha..

Jadinye, aku nak mengucapkan selamat berpuasa buat semua muslim seluruh dunia khususnya sedara mare ku yang kini berada di Johor dan Singapura dan juga kepada bik chik dan paksu sekeluarga di Scotland. Berbahagialah anda di sana.

Yang penting ......baju raya aku lum antar tailor lagi. Damn. Kain dah melambak, tapi tak terjahit-jahit lagi. Tolong wei~!!

[angelica] - Mama Don't Preach.

 


Tuesday, September 04, 2007

I wish to be tall but I can't.

I wish to be pretty but I  can't.

I wish to be clever but I can't.

I wish to be brave but I can't.

I wish to honest but I can't.

I wish to be confident but I can't.

I wish to be strict but I can't.

I wish to be great but I can't.

I wish to be a good planner but I can't.

I wish to be tidy but I can't.

I want to be intelligent but I can't.

I wish to be a lovely person but I can't.

I wish to be nice but I can't.

I wish to be religious but I can't.

I wish to be an all-rounder but I can't.

I wish to look good but I can't.

I wish to be intellectual but I can't.

I don't wish to be too emotional but I can't.

I wish to be a hardworking person but I can't.

I wish to be PERFECT but I can't!

...........are you familiar with these? Sick of life lately? Tired with personal problems that keep bugging you all these times?

If yes, let's change. Let's improve ourselves. Let's enjoy life to the fullest. Never care of what people talk about you because you deserve to be who you are. It's your life and live in it.

 

[angelica]


Friday, July 27, 2007

Very Busy. Very, Very Busy.

That is all I can say to describe my current days. I don't really have time to think of enjoying my days with friends like usual because I am very much tied up with assignment loads, readings, discoveries and such. I do feel like quitting all these at times but hey, it only takes a few months away to finish up my degree. I am eager to reach that moment of saying, "Yes, I am done". 

So, does blogging considered a crime? Comment.

[angelica]



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